Sitting here infront of my desk, enjoying the post-rain coolness, sipping root beer on my champagne glass while downloading the Blu-ray version of Interstellar, I began thinking of the past 5 years that has happened to me. Did anything change at all? & if it did, was it for the better?After I graduated Nursing & got my license to practice, I never really thought of practicing it. Maybe the achievement was overwhelming, it didn't occur to me that I should start before I lose the passion.
A few months passed by & I thought of saving first by working in a call center before I jump-start my real career. Before I knew it, I was handed several promotions & ended up having to change my original plan. I could say I tried getting out, but responsibilities grew bigger & having to start from scratch is implausible.
Having this certain level of obsessive compulsiveness, there were a few moments when I find myself unable to sleep, thinking about the different path I took. Financially, I get by somehow, but if we're talking about being satisfied in what I do, it would be depressing. Especially now, after 5 years, I find myself unable to find a job that does not require taking in calls for roughly 8 hours per day...or night.
So now I decided, during my 25th year of existence, to enroll myself to another degree. Since I lost the will to take care of people as a nurse, maybe I'd be better in taking care of computers as an I.T. guy. I have thought about studying again for quite some time, but I never really had the budget for it. I still don't, but if I don't do this now, I would probably end up asking the same question in another 5 years.
Wish me luck, my nonexistent readers, in this added endeavor. Some of the people I've told about this questioned my having to find balance in work & study, but I'm never gonna stop challenging myself only because I find temporary comfort. My loved ones always tell me that they're proud of me, from what I achieved & from how independent I become, but now I want to really feel their pride. I want to really feel that I'm proud of me.
Sitting here infront of my desk, still enjoying the post-rain coolness, with an empty champagne glass of what used to be root beer while the download is about to reach 100%, I began thinking of the next 5 years to come. I guess life periodically changes, & if you feel that there's still a lot of room for improvements, then these changes are all for the better.
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